Your Attachment Style: Secure
Based upon your quiz answers, you appear to have a secure attachment style. People with secure attachments tend to feel comfortable with themselves and their relationships. Securely attached individuals tend to have happier, long-lasting relationships. You feel comfotable sharing your feelings with your partner and are able to turn to your partner for support.
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
Friday, February 11, 2011
questions
Chris Hyde
Personal development
Questions for the movie Precious
1. What were the factors that contributed to Precious having low self-esteem?
The factors that lead to Precious low self-esteem are the constant beating and abuse both physically and verbally that her mom did to her.
2. What signs of low self-esteem did Precious display?
The signs of low self-esteem that she display was the way she think of herself, she think she was useless and not talented, she got delinquent, and for example when she stole the bucket of chicken, she became violent and hang alone
3. What defense mechanisms did Precious use to avoid dealing with pain? Give examples.
She couldn’t cope with her image and how society view her and also maintain an image because she was constantly imagining her as a model taking pictures and looking pretty with many clothes and cameras.
Altruism: The individual deals with emotional conflict or internal or external stressors by dedication to meeting the needs of others. Unlike the self-sacrifice sometimes characteristic of reaction formation, the individual receives gratification either vicariously or from the response of others.
Intellectualization: The individual deals with emotional conflict or internal or external stressors by the excessive use of abstract thinking or the making of generalizations to control or minimize disturbing feelings.
Substitution: Through this defense mechanism, the individual secures alternative or substitutive gratification comparable to those that would have been employed had frustration not occurred.
4. What neurotic needs did Precious over-use or display? Give examples.
The Neurotic Need for Affection and Approval
This needs include the desires to be liked, to please other people, and meet the expectations of others. People with this type of need are extremely sensitive to rejection and criticism and fear the anger or hostility of others. She wanted to be love by her mother.
The Neurotic Need for Prestige
Individuals with a need for prestige value themselves in terms of public recognition and acclaim. Material possessions, personality characteristics, professional accomplishments, and loved ones are evaluated based upon prestige value. These individuals often fear public embarrassment and loss of social status. She wanted to finish her studies
The Neurotic Need for Self-Sufficiency and Independence
These individuals exhibit a “loner” mentality, distancing themselves from others in order to avoid being tied down or dependent upon other people.
The Neurotic Need for Perfection and Unassailability
These individuals constantly strive for complete infallibility. A common feature of this neurotic need is searching for personal flaws in order to quickly change or cover up these perceived imperfections.
5. What helped Precious increase her self-esteem?
The constant help of the teacher that love her, she pursuit her to always be positive and told her that she is good at something, everyone is good at something. They talk to her, showed her support and love and treat her with kindness, something that she had never had before.
6. What signs of higher/increasing self-esteem did Precious display?
The signs that she showed was maturity, she fight back her mom when she try to take advantage of her. She also began to focus more on her school work and took care of her kids on her on if it was possible.
7. What did you learn from the movie?
From the move I learn that good people are still out who will accept you for who you are, they will try to help you and sacrifice for you if they see potential in you.
8. Would you recommend the movie to others? Why or why not?
Yes! For me the movie is inspirational and it will help many people who doubt themselves. It will make them realize that people do care for them and giving up is not a good choice because it wont solve the problem, it will just make it worst.
Personal development
Questions for the movie Precious
1. What were the factors that contributed to Precious having low self-esteem?
The factors that lead to Precious low self-esteem are the constant beating and abuse both physically and verbally that her mom did to her.
2. What signs of low self-esteem did Precious display?
The signs of low self-esteem that she display was the way she think of herself, she think she was useless and not talented, she got delinquent, and for example when she stole the bucket of chicken, she became violent and hang alone
3. What defense mechanisms did Precious use to avoid dealing with pain? Give examples.
She couldn’t cope with her image and how society view her and also maintain an image because she was constantly imagining her as a model taking pictures and looking pretty with many clothes and cameras.
Altruism: The individual deals with emotional conflict or internal or external stressors by dedication to meeting the needs of others. Unlike the self-sacrifice sometimes characteristic of reaction formation, the individual receives gratification either vicariously or from the response of others.
Intellectualization: The individual deals with emotional conflict or internal or external stressors by the excessive use of abstract thinking or the making of generalizations to control or minimize disturbing feelings.
Substitution: Through this defense mechanism, the individual secures alternative or substitutive gratification comparable to those that would have been employed had frustration not occurred.
4. What neurotic needs did Precious over-use or display? Give examples.
The Neurotic Need for Affection and Approval
This needs include the desires to be liked, to please other people, and meet the expectations of others. People with this type of need are extremely sensitive to rejection and criticism and fear the anger or hostility of others. She wanted to be love by her mother.
The Neurotic Need for Prestige
Individuals with a need for prestige value themselves in terms of public recognition and acclaim. Material possessions, personality characteristics, professional accomplishments, and loved ones are evaluated based upon prestige value. These individuals often fear public embarrassment and loss of social status. She wanted to finish her studies
The Neurotic Need for Self-Sufficiency and Independence
These individuals exhibit a “loner” mentality, distancing themselves from others in order to avoid being tied down or dependent upon other people.
The Neurotic Need for Perfection and Unassailability
These individuals constantly strive for complete infallibility. A common feature of this neurotic need is searching for personal flaws in order to quickly change or cover up these perceived imperfections.
5. What helped Precious increase her self-esteem?
The constant help of the teacher that love her, she pursuit her to always be positive and told her that she is good at something, everyone is good at something. They talk to her, showed her support and love and treat her with kindness, something that she had never had before.
6. What signs of higher/increasing self-esteem did Precious display?
The signs that she showed was maturity, she fight back her mom when she try to take advantage of her. She also began to focus more on her school work and took care of her kids on her on if it was possible.
7. What did you learn from the movie?
From the move I learn that good people are still out who will accept you for who you are, they will try to help you and sacrifice for you if they see potential in you.
8. Would you recommend the movie to others? Why or why not?
Yes! For me the movie is inspirational and it will help many people who doubt themselves. It will make them realize that people do care for them and giving up is not a good choice because it wont solve the problem, it will just make it worst.
Monday, February 7, 2011
stress
Here Are The Ways Stress May Be Affecting Your Body:
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Here are the results of your quiz:
Answers that indicate no stress issues are marked with a , while answers that could indicate stress symptoms have a next to them.
1
OK
Do you find yourself getting sick more often than usual?
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a) Yes, I seem to catch most of what goes around in the way of colds and flu.
b) No, I manage to stay pretty healthy.
Good For You! The healthier answer is "b". ( more info )
2
OK
Do you experience stomach aches or gastrointestinal issues like constipation or IBS that get worse with stress?
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a) Yes, I frequently feel ‘stressed to my stomach’.
b) No, this isn’t an issue for me.
Good For You! The healthier answer is "b". ( more info )
3
Possible Stress Symptom
Do you find muscle tension, especially in your neck, back and jaw?
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a) Yes, I’m pretty tense, and often sore. In fact, I could use a massage right now…
b) No, I’m pretty loose.
Your answer indicates a possible stress symptom! The healthier answer is "b". It’s common for people to ‘carry’ stress in their muscles, remaining tense and sometimes not even realizing it. Progressive Muscle Relaxation (PMR) can help you to relieve stress and muscle tension at the same time. ( more information )
4
OK
Do you find that your libido has decreased, or that you’re just too tired for sex?
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a) Yes, my sex life is definitely not what it could be.
b) No, things are fine in that department.
Good For You! The healthier answer is "b". ( more info )
5
OK
Have you become an Emotional Eater? (Do you find yourself eating to cope with stress, or craving sweet or salty food more than usual?)
quiz photo
a) Yes, this sounds like me.
b) No, my eating patterns are pretty much under my control.
Good For You! The healthier answer is "b". ( more info )
6
OK
Are you experiencing adult acne that may be related to stress?
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a) Yes, I’ve had an acne flare-up on my face or body.
b) No, acne hasn’t been a problem for me since high school.
Good For You! The healthier answer is "b". ( more info )
7
OK
Do you experience tension headaches?
quiz photo
a) Yes, it’s not unusual for me to have headaches during a stressful day.
b) No, I rarely get tension headaches.
Good For You! The healthier answer is "b". ( more info )
8
OK
Is your blood pressure on the high side?
quiz photo
a) Yes.
b) Not that I know of.
Good For You! The healthier answer is "b". ( more info )
9
Possible Stress Symptom
Do you have trouble falling asleep or staying asleep because your body is tense or your mind is racing with stressful thoughts?
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a) Yes, I experience this pretty regularly.
b) No, I sleep pretty well.
Your answer indicates a possible stress symptom! The healthier answer is "b". Stress can make it harder to fall and stay asleep, and make good quality sleep more elusive. If this is an issue for you, learn more about how to prevent stress from sabotaging your sleep. ( more information )
10
Possible Stress Symptom
Do you find that you have a ‘short fuse’ these days—that you’re more sensitive, irritable, or easily frustrated?
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a) Yes, I’ve noticed this—and I suspect that those around me have, too.
b) No, I’m as even-keeled as I’ve always been.
Your answer indicates a possible stress symptom! The healthier answer is "b". Often when people are stressed they feel more frustrated and emotionally reactive to events that would normally affect them less. If you have a shorter fuse these days, this article can help. ( more information )
11
OK
Have you experienced weight gain or weight loss that you suspect is due to stress, or are you storing more fat in your belly lately?
quiz photo
a) Yes, I find that my body’s shape has changed, and I’m wondering if it’s due to stress.
b) No, I don’t think I’ve experienced stress-related weight changes.
Good For You! The healthier answer is "b". ( more info )
12
OK
Do you have a general feeling of being overwhelmed by everything you’re dealing with right now?
quiz photo
a) Yes, I do feel a bit overwhelmed.
b) No, I feel like I can handle everything somewhat comfortably.
Good For You! The healthier answer is "b". ( more info )
13
OK
Do you feel less social than usual?
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a) Yes, I’m stressed and don’t want to be bothered by people, even friends and family.
b) No, I’m feeling just as social as usual.
Good For You! The healthier answer is "b". ( more info )
14
Possible Stress Symptom
Do you find yourself feeling fatigued or exhausted?
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a) Yes, I seem to be tired most of the time.
b) No, I’m mostly only tired when it’s time to go to bed.
Your answer indicates a possible stress symptom! The healthier answer is "b". Stress can affect your sleep in many ways, but it’s still important for you to get a set amount of healthy shut-eye. Learn more about the benefits of sleep, and discover the secrets of the power nap. ( more information )
15
OK
Do you have more difficulty with decision-making and concentration these days, or find that you’re forgetting things more often?
quiz photo
a) Yes, my mind is a bit foggy these days.
b) No, I’m still pretty sharp.
Good For You! The healthier answer is "b". ( more info )
16
OK
Do you find yourself drinking alcohol more to relax, smoking to deal with stress, or using other ‘vices’?
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a) No, I have healthier ways to cope with stress.
b) No, I have healthier ways to cope with stress.
Good For You! The healthier answer is "b". ( more info )
17
OK
Do you find yourself getting less joy from your work and feeling a sense of burnout?
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a) Yes, I’m wondering if I’m approaching burnout—or if I’m already there!
b) No, I still enjoy my work as much as I ever did.
Good For You! The healthier answer is "b". ( more info )
18
OK
Do you often feel anxious about things you can’t control?
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a) Yes, I’m somewhat prone to worry and anxiety.
b) No, I don’t really worry about things that are beyond my control.
Good For You! The healthier answer is "b". ( more info )
19
OK
Do you have another symptom that you think could be stress-related?
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a) Yes.
b) No.
Good For You! The healthier answer is "b". ( more info )
20
OK
Are you losing your hair and suspect that stress may be a factor?
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a) Yes, I’m losing some hair.
b) No, I’m not losing hair.
Good For You! The healthier answer is "b". ( more info )
Your Assessment: According to your answers, 16 out of 20 possible stress symptoms are not a problem for you, for a stress symptom score of 80 percent.
You appear to have a few stress symptoms.
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Here are the results of your quiz:
Answers that indicate no stress issues are marked with a , while answers that could indicate stress symptoms have a next to them.
1
OK
Do you find yourself getting sick more often than usual?
quiz photo
a) Yes, I seem to catch most of what goes around in the way of colds and flu.
b) No, I manage to stay pretty healthy.
Good For You! The healthier answer is "b". ( more info )
2
OK
Do you experience stomach aches or gastrointestinal issues like constipation or IBS that get worse with stress?
quiz photo
a) Yes, I frequently feel ‘stressed to my stomach’.
b) No, this isn’t an issue for me.
Good For You! The healthier answer is "b". ( more info )
3
Possible Stress Symptom
Do you find muscle tension, especially in your neck, back and jaw?
quiz photo
a) Yes, I’m pretty tense, and often sore. In fact, I could use a massage right now…
b) No, I’m pretty loose.
Your answer indicates a possible stress symptom! The healthier answer is "b". It’s common for people to ‘carry’ stress in their muscles, remaining tense and sometimes not even realizing it. Progressive Muscle Relaxation (PMR) can help you to relieve stress and muscle tension at the same time. ( more information )
4
OK
Do you find that your libido has decreased, or that you’re just too tired for sex?
quiz photo
a) Yes, my sex life is definitely not what it could be.
b) No, things are fine in that department.
Good For You! The healthier answer is "b". ( more info )
5
OK
Have you become an Emotional Eater? (Do you find yourself eating to cope with stress, or craving sweet or salty food more than usual?)
quiz photo
a) Yes, this sounds like me.
b) No, my eating patterns are pretty much under my control.
Good For You! The healthier answer is "b". ( more info )
6
OK
Are you experiencing adult acne that may be related to stress?
quiz photo
a) Yes, I’ve had an acne flare-up on my face or body.
b) No, acne hasn’t been a problem for me since high school.
Good For You! The healthier answer is "b". ( more info )
7
OK
Do you experience tension headaches?
quiz photo
a) Yes, it’s not unusual for me to have headaches during a stressful day.
b) No, I rarely get tension headaches.
Good For You! The healthier answer is "b". ( more info )
8
OK
Is your blood pressure on the high side?
quiz photo
a) Yes.
b) Not that I know of.
Good For You! The healthier answer is "b". ( more info )
9
Possible Stress Symptom
Do you have trouble falling asleep or staying asleep because your body is tense or your mind is racing with stressful thoughts?
quiz photo
a) Yes, I experience this pretty regularly.
b) No, I sleep pretty well.
Your answer indicates a possible stress symptom! The healthier answer is "b". Stress can make it harder to fall and stay asleep, and make good quality sleep more elusive. If this is an issue for you, learn more about how to prevent stress from sabotaging your sleep. ( more information )
10
Possible Stress Symptom
Do you find that you have a ‘short fuse’ these days—that you’re more sensitive, irritable, or easily frustrated?
quiz photo
a) Yes, I’ve noticed this—and I suspect that those around me have, too.
b) No, I’m as even-keeled as I’ve always been.
Your answer indicates a possible stress symptom! The healthier answer is "b". Often when people are stressed they feel more frustrated and emotionally reactive to events that would normally affect them less. If you have a shorter fuse these days, this article can help. ( more information )
11
OK
Have you experienced weight gain or weight loss that you suspect is due to stress, or are you storing more fat in your belly lately?
quiz photo
a) Yes, I find that my body’s shape has changed, and I’m wondering if it’s due to stress.
b) No, I don’t think I’ve experienced stress-related weight changes.
Good For You! The healthier answer is "b". ( more info )
12
OK
Do you have a general feeling of being overwhelmed by everything you’re dealing with right now?
quiz photo
a) Yes, I do feel a bit overwhelmed.
b) No, I feel like I can handle everything somewhat comfortably.
Good For You! The healthier answer is "b". ( more info )
13
OK
Do you feel less social than usual?
quiz photo
a) Yes, I’m stressed and don’t want to be bothered by people, even friends and family.
b) No, I’m feeling just as social as usual.
Good For You! The healthier answer is "b". ( more info )
14
Possible Stress Symptom
Do you find yourself feeling fatigued or exhausted?
quiz photo
a) Yes, I seem to be tired most of the time.
b) No, I’m mostly only tired when it’s time to go to bed.
Your answer indicates a possible stress symptom! The healthier answer is "b". Stress can affect your sleep in many ways, but it’s still important for you to get a set amount of healthy shut-eye. Learn more about the benefits of sleep, and discover the secrets of the power nap. ( more information )
15
OK
Do you have more difficulty with decision-making and concentration these days, or find that you’re forgetting things more often?
quiz photo
a) Yes, my mind is a bit foggy these days.
b) No, I’m still pretty sharp.
Good For You! The healthier answer is "b". ( more info )
16
OK
Do you find yourself drinking alcohol more to relax, smoking to deal with stress, or using other ‘vices’?
quiz photo
a) No, I have healthier ways to cope with stress.
b) No, I have healthier ways to cope with stress.
Good For You! The healthier answer is "b". ( more info )
17
OK
Do you find yourself getting less joy from your work and feeling a sense of burnout?
quiz photo
a) Yes, I’m wondering if I’m approaching burnout—or if I’m already there!
b) No, I still enjoy my work as much as I ever did.
Good For You! The healthier answer is "b". ( more info )
18
OK
Do you often feel anxious about things you can’t control?
quiz photo
a) Yes, I’m somewhat prone to worry and anxiety.
b) No, I don’t really worry about things that are beyond my control.
Good For You! The healthier answer is "b". ( more info )
19
OK
Do you have another symptom that you think could be stress-related?
quiz photo
a) Yes.
b) No.
Good For You! The healthier answer is "b". ( more info )
20
OK
Are you losing your hair and suspect that stress may be a factor?
quiz photo
a) Yes, I’m losing some hair.
b) No, I’m not losing hair.
Good For You! The healthier answer is "b". ( more info )
Your Assessment: According to your answers, 16 out of 20 possible stress symptoms are not a problem for you, for a stress symptom score of 80 percent.
You appear to have a few stress symptoms.
Thursday, February 3, 2011
WHO I WAS
Chris Hyde
Personality Development
3rd Feb. 2011
Who I Was
My name is Chris Hyde I was born on the 1st April. I come from a family that consist of my mother, 3 sisters and 2 other brother. My past was not that great at all because I have been through many things that people would not believe, but I will give a brief history. I cannot remember my childhood growing up because when I was a baby I was in a car accident with my mom, we both have a scar under our chin as remembrance of it. I know it because that is what they told me because I don’t really remember anything. What I can remember was the time when my mom was pregnant for my 1st sister, at that time she had already have 3 boys but we were small, we lived in a area that was deserted from everyone plus the house was nothing like a house but it was our home. One day we went out to visit our grandparents who lived in town, it was like a daily ritual. We came back in the night time at our home, it was dark and always creepy but we were familiar with the area anyway when we open the door we realized that we had been rob but up to now I don’t know what they wanted from us because we were poor. They destroyed the inside of our house, turn it upside ways, they stole our documents such as birth papers etc…we immediately called the police and even up to now no one has been found or put in jail, was like it didn’t matter. A next problem that we had occurred in like weeks, for me I think we were target of something. As mention before my mom was still pregnant and they try to rub as again but in this case we were in the house sleeping. At that time I was like 6 years old. I saw my mom fighting the man pregnant, we try to help her but we couldn’t so we ran and call the neighbor, they inform the police and the man fled. Up to now I feel bad because I couldn’t protect my mother so I said to myself no one will chancy her. Because of all those things that occurred that are we move from there, at that time I was attending Xavier School. I was a bright student and pass with all high grades, but because we had to move I went to another school, Church of Christ. I was like already in a higher class at my previous school because I was too smart for the class I was placed in but in Church of Christ they place me way low not caring that I had already pass those class before. At that moment of my life I was becoming more into my books but at the same time my mom was doing things on her own so she needed help. She found a step father for us so we move to a next house and another school. The process didn’t happen fast so I was skipping school a lot to earn money for my mother. At that time I was like 12, just one kid on the street trying to earn something and didn’t care what it took. The man that my mom had took me to work with him on the weekend, that’s how I learn how to build house and build chair and carpentry, he was great at first but then we keep on moving from house to house. I have been live in houses that don’t have windows and door that are about to fall and so on hope you get the point. In the nights he got abusive with us, he would whip us with anything that he hands in his reach. He would hang us from our legs and just lash us with wire and he was also getting abusive with my mother we still didn’t leave because he was providing and we were young. Anyway we move to a sensible house and was still attending Church of Christ but it was far from us because we had to walk so we would reach late in the evenings and he didn’t appreciate that so he would beat us. One day I was coming late, my brother had already reached home so he was inside. I already know that he would lash me so I made up my mind at age 12 to abandon my house. I told my mother, “pack up my things for me and send it to my grandparent’s house because I will stay there now”. That was the starting of my life because it was terrible, I had to sleep on board with no covering on the side but I did not complain once because I was doing me. I was working on and off like helping people at the same time my character was growing and I was becoming much more smarter and also sad to say my childhood didn’t exist for me but it doesn’t matter. After a while my brother move from the house then my mother and little sister came so we move in at our grandparent’s house but the space was limited so we built up a little place to stay in the yard and up to now we are good. When they all came I went to St. Paul’s School. At that school it met a lot of good, 2 faces, bad people and a love one. There was the first I came to face with feelings because things had settled down with me and I had time for other things. I was place in STD.3. Since I started there I pass all my terms first and high, I was nobody when I came in but I was capturing the people attention so people wanted to help me to further my studies but due to bad mind and racist people that accuse me off things that I didn’t do I was never given the chance but it didn’t matter because a great lady came in my life and helped me, I was involve in church and was turning a good guy so I got the opportunity to attend high school “CCC” and “CJC”. What I just mention is nothing because it’s just like a preview of what a smile can hide. I was terrible kids that use to steal to survive; troublesome who made the right choice. I had the choice to be bad kid or good kid and at the end I made the right choice but only God can judge me! We are not perfect but we can try to be. Up to now everyone I know loves me because I’m easy to love and hard to ignore and hate but still people hate.
My past achievements are those that I got in my primary school. I earn a lot of good merits such as for always being present in school, for excellent grades, helping others and overall for best performance. I also achieve medal for my primary school basketball team and for a under 21 tournaments and achievements from high school such as sports medal and my diploma and also the love, care and trust of many teachers and friends. To be honest the only trauma that I had that change my life was the constant abuse of my step father and the many days without food in my stomach and to see the pain of mother. The happiest moment of my life was…I don’t really have a happy moment as yet but the worst was to be on my own as a child, struggling and surviving alone with minimal help or assistance because I was on my own on the streets “hustling”, stealing sometimes not because I was trying to be delinquent but for survival and trying to come up in life. The scariest time of my life was the time I got in my first bike accident, it was the first time I cry! I was hit by an old car, I elevated in the air and the bike land on top of me, I was in pain but hate needles so I didn’t want to go to the hospital, I was taken home and force to the hospital. They took X-rays and told me that I need surgery for my shoulder because it had broken or something but I got terrified and cry a lot because I never wanted to open up at all but then in the end I didn’t because they realize that it was a mistake and that my bone was growing that way, it was pretty weird and relieving. The embarrassing time I had was playing basketball when a guy was driving in the ball to score, while doing that he knock my pants off and a girl that I knew was watching and kind of laugh so I hurry pull it up and play like if nothing had occurred. The life changing experience was when I walked out of my house at age 12 and began my own lifestyle and made my own decision, it made me the person who I am now and I’m glad and don’t regret nothing.
In my life I have met a lot of people who influence me but those who I all look up to change on me and I don’t even talk to them now because of what they did to me. Due to a lady that assist me and ask little back of me I got through school and I’m blessed and thankful to all their support and friendship, even those who didn’t help me and didn’t think that I was good and would not make it through because without them I would be nothing. Role models would be my mother as first and my favorite basketball player “Kobe Bryant” and any successful people who made it and didn’t had nothing.
Personality Development
3rd Feb. 2011
Who I Was
My name is Chris Hyde I was born on the 1st April. I come from a family that consist of my mother, 3 sisters and 2 other brother. My past was not that great at all because I have been through many things that people would not believe, but I will give a brief history. I cannot remember my childhood growing up because when I was a baby I was in a car accident with my mom, we both have a scar under our chin as remembrance of it. I know it because that is what they told me because I don’t really remember anything. What I can remember was the time when my mom was pregnant for my 1st sister, at that time she had already have 3 boys but we were small, we lived in a area that was deserted from everyone plus the house was nothing like a house but it was our home. One day we went out to visit our grandparents who lived in town, it was like a daily ritual. We came back in the night time at our home, it was dark and always creepy but we were familiar with the area anyway when we open the door we realized that we had been rob but up to now I don’t know what they wanted from us because we were poor. They destroyed the inside of our house, turn it upside ways, they stole our documents such as birth papers etc…we immediately called the police and even up to now no one has been found or put in jail, was like it didn’t matter. A next problem that we had occurred in like weeks, for me I think we were target of something. As mention before my mom was still pregnant and they try to rub as again but in this case we were in the house sleeping. At that time I was like 6 years old. I saw my mom fighting the man pregnant, we try to help her but we couldn’t so we ran and call the neighbor, they inform the police and the man fled. Up to now I feel bad because I couldn’t protect my mother so I said to myself no one will chancy her. Because of all those things that occurred that are we move from there, at that time I was attending Xavier School. I was a bright student and pass with all high grades, but because we had to move I went to another school, Church of Christ. I was like already in a higher class at my previous school because I was too smart for the class I was placed in but in Church of Christ they place me way low not caring that I had already pass those class before. At that moment of my life I was becoming more into my books but at the same time my mom was doing things on her own so she needed help. She found a step father for us so we move to a next house and another school. The process didn’t happen fast so I was skipping school a lot to earn money for my mother. At that time I was like 12, just one kid on the street trying to earn something and didn’t care what it took. The man that my mom had took me to work with him on the weekend, that’s how I learn how to build house and build chair and carpentry, he was great at first but then we keep on moving from house to house. I have been live in houses that don’t have windows and door that are about to fall and so on hope you get the point. In the nights he got abusive with us, he would whip us with anything that he hands in his reach. He would hang us from our legs and just lash us with wire and he was also getting abusive with my mother we still didn’t leave because he was providing and we were young. Anyway we move to a sensible house and was still attending Church of Christ but it was far from us because we had to walk so we would reach late in the evenings and he didn’t appreciate that so he would beat us. One day I was coming late, my brother had already reached home so he was inside. I already know that he would lash me so I made up my mind at age 12 to abandon my house. I told my mother, “pack up my things for me and send it to my grandparent’s house because I will stay there now”. That was the starting of my life because it was terrible, I had to sleep on board with no covering on the side but I did not complain once because I was doing me. I was working on and off like helping people at the same time my character was growing and I was becoming much more smarter and also sad to say my childhood didn’t exist for me but it doesn’t matter. After a while my brother move from the house then my mother and little sister came so we move in at our grandparent’s house but the space was limited so we built up a little place to stay in the yard and up to now we are good. When they all came I went to St. Paul’s School. At that school it met a lot of good, 2 faces, bad people and a love one. There was the first I came to face with feelings because things had settled down with me and I had time for other things. I was place in STD.3. Since I started there I pass all my terms first and high, I was nobody when I came in but I was capturing the people attention so people wanted to help me to further my studies but due to bad mind and racist people that accuse me off things that I didn’t do I was never given the chance but it didn’t matter because a great lady came in my life and helped me, I was involve in church and was turning a good guy so I got the opportunity to attend high school “CCC” and “CJC”. What I just mention is nothing because it’s just like a preview of what a smile can hide. I was terrible kids that use to steal to survive; troublesome who made the right choice. I had the choice to be bad kid or good kid and at the end I made the right choice but only God can judge me! We are not perfect but we can try to be. Up to now everyone I know loves me because I’m easy to love and hard to ignore and hate but still people hate.
My past achievements are those that I got in my primary school. I earn a lot of good merits such as for always being present in school, for excellent grades, helping others and overall for best performance. I also achieve medal for my primary school basketball team and for a under 21 tournaments and achievements from high school such as sports medal and my diploma and also the love, care and trust of many teachers and friends. To be honest the only trauma that I had that change my life was the constant abuse of my step father and the many days without food in my stomach and to see the pain of mother. The happiest moment of my life was…I don’t really have a happy moment as yet but the worst was to be on my own as a child, struggling and surviving alone with minimal help or assistance because I was on my own on the streets “hustling”, stealing sometimes not because I was trying to be delinquent but for survival and trying to come up in life. The scariest time of my life was the time I got in my first bike accident, it was the first time I cry! I was hit by an old car, I elevated in the air and the bike land on top of me, I was in pain but hate needles so I didn’t want to go to the hospital, I was taken home and force to the hospital. They took X-rays and told me that I need surgery for my shoulder because it had broken or something but I got terrified and cry a lot because I never wanted to open up at all but then in the end I didn’t because they realize that it was a mistake and that my bone was growing that way, it was pretty weird and relieving. The embarrassing time I had was playing basketball when a guy was driving in the ball to score, while doing that he knock my pants off and a girl that I knew was watching and kind of laugh so I hurry pull it up and play like if nothing had occurred. The life changing experience was when I walked out of my house at age 12 and began my own lifestyle and made my own decision, it made me the person who I am now and I’m glad and don’t regret nothing.
In my life I have met a lot of people who influence me but those who I all look up to change on me and I don’t even talk to them now because of what they did to me. Due to a lady that assist me and ask little back of me I got through school and I’m blessed and thankful to all their support and friendship, even those who didn’t help me and didn’t think that I was good and would not make it through because without them I would be nothing. Role models would be my mother as first and my favorite basketball player “Kobe Bryant” and any successful people who made it and didn’t had nothing.
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